Wanna Be PhD

PhD 2006. Now fully blown by the Postdoc Experience.

Location: My Appartment, Academic Nowhereland

Email: wannabephd@gmail.com

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

New Supervisor and why I am so happy

Yeah, I know that I have almost given up blogging. I really feel happy and satisfied with my life right now. As you might know, I have switched to New Supervisor from Another Town in March. I am back in my home town now, and also the relationship with Ex Supervisor has improved considerably.

First, I feel so relieved because New Supervisor helped me to develop a plan for my dissertation. The thesis has grown by now, the major part will be completed by Christmas, and I am thinking of handing it in by the end of January. Knowing where I am in my work and having the feeling of control where it goes took away most of my desperate feelings. So, as a conclusion, if anyone feels unhappy in his or her relationship with the supervisor, I can really recommend to go for a change.

The relationship back here to Ex Supervisor has improved as well because I have stopped to get on his nerves with my work. When I look back, one of the problems was that I needed help in my work and he was unable to give it. I don't know why, but it just didn't work at all.
Now, I don't "force" him to anything, so matters are de-escalated.

All together, my personal feelings have improved. Apparently, I have almost stopped to sit in front of my computer, spending night after night being desperate.

I have to tell more about Weirdo Friend and my social life at a later point.


I have a Collaboratorix! I do! I do! I do!

I took all my strength, facing my fear that my work might get stolen, and asked a senior researcher at My Department to write a joint paper for a conference. I think it worked! We had some ideas, got some results, and submitted.

I thought that my fear that my work might get stolen isolates me. It drives me away from people. I really thought it was time to change this. So I chose a topic which is not related to my dissertation and a person that is not my friend. Just in case things go wrong. So I'd not lose too much.

Up to now, it really worked, and our thing is getting big. Probably we'll continue and submit to a Big Important Journal.

I know that I have all these fears b/c I got hurt before with my Ex Friend. But when I share my work and my ideas, I also gain something. I will have more publications, and I can learn from Collaboratorix how she works.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Novel writing

Does writing an abstract for a conference count for the NaNoWriMo? If not, then I still have produced the magical number of zero words.